why do people make sets with a real life picture and say "fave if you think i'm pretty!!!", are you really that insecure that you need validation from complete strangers to boost your clearly low self esteem? idunno it just bugs me, why do you need other people to tell you you're pretty? i mean yes, everyone likes compliments and needs to be reassured now and again but there are going to be people that think you're pretty yet there are also always going to be people who think you're ugly as fuck or nothing special lol. if someone thinks you're pretty, that's nice - but their opinion shouldn't inflate your ego. if someone thinks you're ugly, that's okay - but their opinion shouldn't DEFLATE how you feel about yourself. you know what i mean, i feel like people rely way to much on how others perceive them or on other's opinions when really, you are the one who sets your self worth and other's thoughts on you whether positive or negative shouldn't drastically change how you feel about yourself if you're secure. what i'm saying is, you shouldn't have to look to outside sources to dictate how you perceive yourself whether it be looking for validation from guys/other girls/etc... look to yourself for that validation. i mean, i've been called a lot of different unkind things/also on the flip side i've been given a lot of compliments yet none of such define me or change how i see myself because i know who i am. anyway, on one last random thought, i'm extremely sad that tonight is the last episode of the real world las vegas. BOOOO :(

Did anything in particular brighten up your day?
not today, well i guess the nice weather :)

Did you sleep alone last night?
that i did.
 
Are you a jeans and t-shirt type of person?
depends on the mood/occasion.

What song is stuck in your head?
automatic by aubrey o'day.

Do you have any jewelery on?
just my belly button ring.

Do you like to watch home videos of yourself?
lol no kind of embarassing, i was always hamming it up... loved the camera.

Was someone else in your room when you woke up this morning?
nada!

Are you currently expecting a text message from someone?
mmm a reply on twitter lol and i have it so that it alerts me on my phone.

Did you eat breakfast today?
of course, love breakfast. i had a bowl of kashi go lean cereal w/ blueberries :)

Who would you like to see right now?
not in the mood to see anyone atm.

How many pillows do you sleep with?
one, i'm very specific with how i sleep or i can't fall asleep it's weird.

Have you ever actually seen someone fall on a banana peel?
lol i wish, now THAT would brighten my day.

Are you shy at first when it comes to meeting people?
i would say yes, i'm shy.

The person you like runs up and kisses you, what do you do?
tbh at the moment i'm not interested in anyone.

What was the last thing you drank?
protein shake.

What are you listening to?
nothing at all. i'm home alone and it's pretty silent

Are you the same person as you were at the beginning of 2008?
i can't even remember how i was in 2008 but i do know i've definitely changed a lot even in the past year.

Is there someone you will never forget?
of course.

Name something you dislike about the day you're having?
nothing to dislike, i'm living so i'm happy.

Do you find tattoos attractive?
it really honestly depends. some tattoos are completely random and dumb as fuck but i can see the art in skilled tattoo work. also, i think some people pull them off with their style and what not while others... it just doesn't suit them/easily looks trashy. you know what i mean?

Has a bf/gf ever looked through your phone when you weren't looking?
if i wasn't looking how would i know lol god what a dumb question.

Have you ever wanted to have someone but you messed it up?
yes :( story of my life.

Ever dated someone more than once?
no, i have this one friend who does that and i've realized how fucking stupid it is. seriously... you're together, breakup, get back together, break up again...and the cycle continues. get a back bone and realize it's not meant to be.

What's been on your mind lately?
um. my hair lol that sounds so dumb but yeah, i'm kind of excited because i'm getting a head of extensions soon. i had loop ins for a year loved them but got them taken out, then got clip ins (headkandy) they were good quality but a pain in the ass and now i'm getting sandwich extensions.

Would you ever dye your hair blonde?
already do! my hair is naturally light mousy brown but for the majority of my life i've bleached it platinum/white blonde but just recently i dyed it to a light brown with some subtle and chunkier platinum pieces and theeeeen dyed it to a caramel blonde which is where i'm at now and loving it.

Do you look decent when you wake up?
decent enough lol, i mean... i'm happy with myself for the most part and my opinion is the opinion that counts.

What are you doing for your next birthday?
no clue, my next birthday is within the next week (;

Will you be in a relationship in the next couple of months?
only time will tell, i can't predict the future.

Do you think it's possible to be friends with someone you wanna be with?
why just friends if you want to be with them? make it happen

Do you know how many people your best friend has had sex with?
yes

it's may 1st today which means T-11 = my 18th birthday :) i wasn't really excited at first but i'm getting there now that it's closer. finally some nice weather today, god the past week the weather has just been terrible... rain/snow (yep, snow) and super windy/grey skies. basically not the spring weather i've been hoping for lol. i'm getting so jacked for lady gaga's new albummmm i can't wait any fucking longer! grrrrr haha i already know it's going to be my most played album of 2011. alrighty that's all:) i'm going to go workout and then finish up some legal study modules!

it's true, each day given is a day you're given another chance. another chance to go after your dreams, another chance to get tell those you love that you love them. when you think about it, you're the one who shapes your future/how your life is going to go. you have to make things happen because no one else will make whatever it is you want happen for you. well... there's something to think about. fuck on a lighter note i want starbucks so bad now lol i wish we had starbucks here. mmmm a caramel frapp sounds amazing... this sets aighttttt it's weird... i usually get inspiration to make sets when i'm up late at night (or morning any other insomniacs out there ?? haha) i started this at 3:30am this morning. i love nicki minaj........ i wish i could see her in concert. i'm going to rihanna concert in june w/ cee-lo green opening. should be fun stuff! alright that's it bye :)

Are you currently looking forward to tomorrow?
of course... it's easter so i get to eat turkey and good fooooood lol.
 
What song are you listening to?
no song atm.
 
Are you wearing something that belongs to someone else?
yeah my sister's nightmare before christmas pj shorties ha.

Did you have a good day today?
naaaaw, boring unfortunately.
 
Would your parents care if you came home at 4 am?
nope lol.
 
Have you ever thought about getting your nose pierced?
facial piercings aren't my thing. i'm good w/ just my navel and ears haha.
 
Would you rather have short or long hair?
long.
 
What did you do yesterday?
um, not a whole lot... work out/relax.

Do you cry when you don't get what you want?
haha when i was much younger.
 
Have you kissed the last person you texted?
nada.

What would you do if you found out you had been cheated on?
dunzo.
 
Is there someone who continuously lets you down?
yep sadly.
 
Is anyone ignoring you right now?
nope.
 
You kissed someone today, didn't you?
nope.
 
Last night?
nope.

Are you tired right now?
no, not really.
 
Is the person you last texted single?
uhhh no she isn't.

Who was the last person you told a secret to?
probably my bestfriend.

Do you like the town you are living in?
no, it's boring... there is absolutely nothing to do/no shopping mall/extremely cliquey.
 
Are you someone who worries too often?
yep i'm a worrier, lol.

Have you ever thrown a cell phone in anger?
yeeeeeeeees. my poor phone :(
 
How many months until your birthday?
a couple weeks! haha

Who's bed did you last sleep in besides your own?
i slept on the couch lol, anyone else prefer sleeping on the couch instead of their bed? i don't know why it's just more comfortable imo haha.
 
What are you doing?
this lovely survey :)

Do you plan on sleeping in tomorrow?
i can never sleep in, i'm like programed to wake up at 8 every morning lol.
 
Are you jealous of someone right now?
naw, i rarely ever get jealous haha.
 
5 months ago, did you like someone?
yes.

Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months without cheating?
i get bored easily but if i like the person enough it's definitely possible.
 
Do you prefer to take your showers at night or in the morning?
night because i don't have time in the morning.
 
Are you wearing pants?
pj shorts.
 
What color is your hair?
blonde.
 
What are you doing tomorrow?
easter sunday, help make dinner chill w/ the fam jam.
 
Do you think somebody's in love with you?
who knows.
 
Where is your phone?
right on my computer desk.
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What will you be doing in the next 5 hours?
finishing up the book i'm reading (the rules according to jwoww lol don't judge) and then trying to get some sleep.
 
Do you regret anything you've done recently?
no regrets.
 
Are you smiling in your facebook default picture?
i don't have fb.

Has someone ever made you a promise and broke it?
all the time.
 
What was the best thing that happened today?
nothing really stands out lol.
 
How many pillows do you sleep with?
one and only one.
 
Have you ever fallen asleep while texting someone?
yep.
 
Honestly, do you hate the last boy you were talking to in person?
he's okay.
 
When was the last time you received a hug?
mmm i'm not sure tbh.

it's weird thinking back to this time last year... considering how much has changed since then.

whatever not my best but i'm bored and it's currently 1:10am and i can't sleep so you know how it goes lol. i just ate a peanut butter and jam sandwich, a glass of chocolate milk and a cereal bar and i'm still fucking hungry. my stomach is like a bottomless pit. anyway......... lol i just went shopping the other day and got some cute things :) woohoooo! i swear f21 is like the shittiest most unorganized store ever... you have to look for like three hours to find the treasure amongst the ugly garbage.

i'm in love with nicki minaj pink friday :) best album of the year imo. i decorated a gingerbread house the other day! and watched the grinch (the original cartoon one), the grinch is so cute when he gets all sentimental at the end lol. christmas baking this weekend, i'm probably going to bake lemon cake mix cookies w/ icing, soft gingerbread cookies and these delicious oreo truffle cookies! mmm... i'm going to be obese by the time christmas is done and over with, i swear haha.